'Ndakarasikirwa nemazino angu' - nyaya pfupi naKhamsing Srinawk

Nhanganyaya

Pakati pa1958 na1996, Khamsing Srinawk akanyora dzinoverengeka dzenyaya pfupi, pasi pezita remanyepo Law Khamhoom, rine musoro unoti ฟ้าบ่กั้น 'Fàa bò kân, Isaan nokuda kwe: 'Denga harina miganhu yemutauro weSriori' uye rakatsikiswa mumutauro weChirungu. nedzimwe nyaya', Silkworm Books, 2001. Akatsaurira bhuku racho kuna 'amai vangu vakanga vasingagoni kuverenga'. Yakashandurirwa mune mimwe mitauro misere, kusanganisira chiDutch.

Nyaya idzi, rinenge basa rake chete, dzave nemukurumbira. Munguva yemakore erusununguko pakati pa1973 na1976 (chikamu che) basa iri rakaverengerwa mudzidzo yechikoro kusimbisa 'munhuwo zvake' munharaunda yeThai. Mushure mekuuraya kwakaipisisa paThammasaat University (Gumiguru 6, 1976, zuva rakaiswa mundangariro dzevazhinji vechiThais), bhuku rakarambidzwa asi rakadzoserwa sechikamu chedzidzo yenyika mumaXNUMXs, panguva imwe chete saKhamsing, aine humambo. rutsigiro, yakagamuchira zita re'Thailand's National Artist muLiterature'.

Khamsing akaberekwa muna 1930, mwanakomana wevarimi veIsan, muBoea Yai, kusiri kure neKhorat. Pamusoro pehupenyu hwake hwekunyora, akatungamira hupenyu hwezvematongerwo enyika-hwemagariro, semuenzaniso aive mutevedzeri wasachigaro weSocialist Party yeThailand. (Sachigaro webato iri akapondwa muna 1975, pakati pevamwe vakawanda, bato rikabva raparara). Muna 1976 akatizira kusango kwaakandobatana nemakororo emakomunist, asi mushure mekunetsana neCommunist Party yeThailand muna 1977 akatanga hupenyu hwekutama-tama kunze kwenyika aine nguva yakareba ari mupoteri muSweden, pamwe chete nemukadzi wake.

Akadzokera kuThailand muna 1981, achibatsirwa neruregerero. Muna Chivabvu 2011, iye, pamwe chete nevamwe mazana matatu nemakumi mashanu nevasere, vakasaina 'Thai Writers Manifesto' kuti vadzokorore Chinyorwa 358 cheCriminal Code (chinyorwa cheLese majeste). Murume akazvipira munharaunda, akapa izwi uye chiso kumamiriro anosiririsa evarimi veThai uye akakurudzira kururamisira kwevanhu munharaunda yeThai. Mufananidzo wake wemurimi weThai munyaya dzake zvimwe uchiri kushanda, kunze kwekunge rombo rakanaka kuti murimi weThai akasiya maitiro ake ekuzviisa pasi, kunyangwe izvi zvisati zvauya kumunhu wese. Ndakanakidzwa nenyaya dzake, dzinokosha chaizvo. Ona zvimwe nezve biography yake nebasa: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Khamsing_Srinawk

Akanyora nyaya pfupi inotevera muna 1973.

Ndakabuda mazino

Akandimhoresa nezwi rine hasha, "Ko madii kundibvunza kuti chii chaitika kumazino angu?" Ndakambonyarara ndichishaya kuti ndopindura kutii. Ndakatoona kutsvuka kwechiso chake pandakatanga ndamutarisa. Asi pfungwa dzangu hadzina kukurumidza kufunga mhinduro kumubvunzo wake waakaerekana. Ndakanga ndisingazivi kuti ndobatanidza sei kukwazisana pakupindura kwakadaro uye kuramba ndichiita kuti mamiriro acho ezvinhu adekara pasina zvimwe kumukuvadza.

Kutaura zvazviri, ndakanga ndanzwa zvimwe zvinhu nezvenhamo yake, asi mashoko acho akanga ari epamusoro uye aipokana. Ndakanzwa nezvayo nemuzambiringa, asi wakatadza kuziva kuti ndizvo here. Ndakatanga kunzwa kuti akanga apfurwa uye kuti akanga akuvara zvakaipisisa asi akanga apona. Ndakatozongoonana naye ndichinzwa nyaya yake ega ndipo pandakanzwisisa kuti chaainge awana kwaiva kurohwa nembama chete. Chinhu chose chinogona kunzi chiitiko chidiki kana uchichienzanisa nehumwe humbavha, mushure mezvose, akarasikirwa nemazana maviri mabhaht uye chimwe chinhu, pfuti yekare uye mazino mana. Munhu anoita zvemitambo angati akapa zvakawanda kushamwari dzake. Asi hongu, kwandiri inyaya diki nekuti akange asiri munhu wangu akarasikirwa nemazana maviri ebhaht, pfuti nemazino mana. Munhu akadaro, nemuromo wake wakaremara uye chiso chakaneta uye chakapfava, airatidza kuva nepfungwa yakasiyana zvachose. Pashure pekunge ndateerera kugunun’una kwake kwekanguva, ndakamupa maonero angu asina kumunzwira tsitsi. 'Wanga uine pfuti. Nei usina kuishandisa zvakanaka?'

Ndisati ndapedza kutaura chiso chake chainge changodzikama chakabva chaita hasha zvekare. Maziso ake akadzama aipenya mumaziso aibaya baya.

'Ndakatenga chinhu ichocho nepfungwa iyoyo mupfungwa: kuzvidzivirira pamakororo nembavha. Asi munoziva, zvinhu pano zviri kuvhiringa izvozvi. Iwe hauchakwanisa kusiyanisa mukomana akanaka kubva kune akaipa. Huya ugare pano zvishoma uye uchanzwisisa zvandiri kureva. Kunyanya mumusha uri musango sewedu. Vekunze vanenge vari kunetsekana nesu. Vhiki nevhiki uye mwedzi nemwedzi tinofanira kuramba tichinyemwerera pazviso zvedu pasina kumboita sezvakanaka. Isu tinonyemwerera kune vese vashanyi kunge boka remapenzi. Vanongopinda mukicheni medu kuti vaone zvatiri kuita, kutiziva uye kutibvunza nezvemararamiro edu. Mibvunzo, mibvunzo. Vamwe vanobva muhoro yemusha, vamwe muhoro yetaundi uye vamwewo vanobva muguta, uye kunyange kubva kunze, nzvimbo dzisina munhu akambonzwa nezvadzo. Vese vane kunyemwerera kumwe kwekumanikidzira sekunge vaive nemudzidzisi mumwe chete. Kana vakomana vakanaka vachigona kunyemwerera saka vakomana vakaipa vanogonawo, handiti? Ko pfuti ine basa rei...?'

'Masikati iwayo, zuva randakabva mazino angu, vakauya zvakare pagedhi vari muboka remombe, vose vakafinyama kumeso. Umwe wacho akabva angondinanga pandakanga ndichinhonga masaga pasi pedura. Imwe yakaenda kudanga renguruve uko mudzimai wangu nomwanakomana wedu vaimwaya hura muchidyiro. Vatatu vakaungana mujinga memanera. Ndakasimudza musoro ndokuvasekerera. Asi kunyemwerera kwangu kusati kwanyatsokura ndakanzwa pfuti padivi pangu ndikanzi ndiise pasi raki rangu…'

'Panguva iyoyo vatatu vakakwira masitepisi eimba yangu ndokutanga kutsvaga zvinhu zvinokosha. Ndakamboita chinguva ndichiti chiveve. Pandakapengenuka ndakabva ndaita hasha. Misodzi yakajenga mumaziso angu uye kuona kwangu kwakanga kusina kujeka pandakatarisa vatatu vakanga vachikamhina vari pamusoro peimba yangu. Ipapo ndakati, “Kana imi maiva noushingi uye muine ushingi, seiko muchibata vanhu vakaita seni vanorarama nomuromo? Ko sei musingabire vanhu vari kuita mari.

'Munoreva ani?'

"Zvakanaka, macapitalist uye mamirioni anotyaira muMercedes uye anoratidza matumbu edoro ..."

Ndisati ndapedza chirevo changu, mwana wetsotsi uya akarova muromo wangu nepfuti yake ndokuti:

'Kupopota kwakaipa!'

'Ndakawira pasi patsoka dzake nemazino mana kumashure kwehuro yangu.'

"Wakamhan'ara kumapurisa here?"

'Chokwadi'

"Vati kudii?"

'Hapana. Vakanyora zvose zvakanaka.'

"Wakanyatsovaudza zvese here?"

'Zvose. O, imbomira zvishoma. Handina kutaura zvandakataura vasati vandirova, nezvemamillionaire, mota dzinodhura, matumbu edoro nezvimwe zvakadaro…'

'Kuregererei?'

“Zvakanaka, sekutaura kwandaita, zvinhu zvese zviri kuvhiringa mazuva ano uye hauchakwanisa kuudza munhu akanaka kubva kune akaipa zvakare. Ndiani anoziva zvaizoitika dai ndataura zvese? Pamwe ndingadai ndakarasikirwa nemazino angu ose!'