Baka Ba Zai Iya Samun Natsuwa Koda Yaushe (Sashe na 22)

John Wittenberg ya ba da dama na tunani game da tafiyarsa ta Tailandia, waɗanda aka buga a baya a cikin ɗan gajeren labari tarin 'Bakan iya ba ko da yaushe a shakatawa' (2007). Abin da ya fara wa Yohanna a matsayin tashi daga zafi da baƙin ciki ya girma zuwa neman ma'ana. Addinin Buddha ya juya ya zama hanya mai wucewa. Labarunsa suna fitowa akai-akai akan shafin yanar gizon Thailand.

Hawaye da gashin tsuntsu mai sheki

Yin yawo a Wat Umong, Ina sha'awar aƙalla ɗan zuhudu daga kyakkyawan zamanin. Sai ga ni kwatsam sai na yi taɗi na ɗan lokaci da wani dattijo wanda ya himmatu wajen koyar da turanci ga matasa sufaye. Duk da cewa yana da wahala a yi magana da wannan malamin saboda ƙwaƙwalwar ajiyarsa ba ta da kyau saboda haɗari, har yanzu ina manne da wannan bambaro na ƙarshe na ɗaukaka mai daraja tun lokacin da nake a nan.

Tunaninsa bai gyaru ba don yana kallona da kyau bai gane ni ba. Na lissafta wasu sunaye da wani matashin ɗalibi mai ban sha'awa wanda shi ma yana ba ni haske a cikin duhu ta hanyar sanin Vichai. Kuma ku yarda da shi ko a'a, cikin ƴan daƙiƙai ina magana da Vichai ta wayar salula kuma in sadu da shi washegari.

Ongebruikelijk is het dat je een monnik omhelst, maar we doen het toch om onze blijdschap te uiten. We halen warme herinneringen op en ik voel me helemaal gelukkig omdat ik het kan delen. Samen gaan we, arm in arm, op zoek naar Juw, de monnik met de jampotglazen. En we vinden hem in een ander huisje. Nu aan de rand van het bos, waar het wild (nou ja, als je onder wild verstaat gehoorzame eekhoorns, aaibare reeen en verdwaasde zwijntjes) ’s ochtends samen met hem mediteert.

Juw ya yi matukar farin ciki da ganina. Ba kasafai yake magana da kowa ba, yana magana a hankali, yana haquri yana neman kalmomi da dogayen yatsunsa wani lokaci suna nuna sama, cikin hasashe yana fahimtar kalmomin da ke shawagi a gaban zuciyarsa. Tsohuwar ruhu a cikin jikin matashi. Natsuwar da ke haskakawa yana ba ni ji mai jituwa, don in sami ɗan ƙaramin mataki kusa da amsar mabuɗin tambayar rayuwata. Binciken da ba a tabbatar da shi ba wanda yanzu ya nuna addinin Buddha. A cikinsa sun haɗu da halayen da ba a bayyana su ba a cikina: masu ibada, masu tawali'u, masu shiga tsakani, masu tunani, masu rauni, masu ƙauna, masu haƙuri da Buddha. Ina son shi sosai domin shi mai tsarki ne. Ina kallonsa cikin kauna kuma da raunin jikinsa na kusan lumshe ya fi karfina. A cikinsa na ji ’yanci daga hargitsi. Yawo mai himma don neman wani farin ciki yana samun makoma ta ƙarshe a halinsa.

Amma kuma a lokaci guda ina da masaniyar cewa wannan tsuntsun aljanna yana da wani baki daban da na gwara. ’Yar gwauruwa ba za ta taɓa yin waƙa da kyau kamar tsuntsun aljanna ba kuma ba za ta taɓa sanya gashin tsuntsu irin wannan ba. Amma tana iya gano kyawun kanta ta hanyar kwatanta kanta zuwa wani abu mai ban mamaki. Ina gilashin jar jar ya tafi? An musanya su da firam mai kama da tawa. Wannan shi ne tasiri na a yayin tattaunawar da muka yi. Ban hango wannan aikin banza a Juw ba, amma cikin rashin kuskure yana nuna tsakiyar hanyar da zamu iya tafiya tare.

"Na gode, kyakykyawan tsuntsun aljanna". Ita kuma 'yar sparrow tana tashi, tana hayaniya, tare da tsaftataccen rubutu na lokaci-lokaci, daga reshe zuwa reshe ba tare da tabbas ba har zuwa sararin sama. Da hawaye a idanunsa, amma gashin tsuntsu mai sheki mai sheki a cikin dusar ƙanƙara.

Ni'ima mai laka a cikin tafkin ruɓe

Wadannan kwanaki a Chiang Mai sun fi mayar da hankali ga addinin Buddha. Tattaunawar da Juw da Vichai suka yi da ƙwaƙwalwar ajiyar zuciya a matsayin ɗan zuhudu suna motsa ni zuwa wannan hanya. Na sami kwanciyar hankali don yin bimbini kuma na karanta tarihin tarihin Buddha mai ban sha'awa wanda wata mace mai suna Karen Armstrong ta rubuta ("Tarihin Allah" da "Ta kunkuntar ƙofar"). Na ɗan lokaci ina so in yi iyo da sauri fiye da tarkacen da ke kewaye da ni, amma bayan ƴan kwanaki da tafkin na halaka ya yi ta gani.

Isasshen ibada yanzu, akan hanyar zuwa Pattaya! Wuri na sa'o'i biyu kudu da Bangkok, a kan gulf Thai. Ya bunƙasa a matsayin ja da baya ga sojojin Amurka a lokacin yakin Vietnam, tsakanin tashin bama-bamai biyu. Ana murmurewa daga kisan kiyashin na wani lokaci. Kuma ba da kalma mai tsarki ba, amma da abin sha da mata.

Bayan yaƙin da aka yi hasarar, tsoffin sojoji a Pattaya sun tuna da kyawawan zamanin da suka bar matansu a gida. "Maza a tsakaninsu", don haka a ce. Kuma ta haka ne ake debo tsohon zaren na hadaddiyar sha da mata da ba za a iya doke su ba har yau. Tare da wannan ƙasa mai albarka yana da kyau a shuka kuma Pattaya ya girma kamar kabeji, yana kafa suna don masana'antar jima'i.

Bari mijinki ya yi muku rakiya a nan, kamar ɗaukar tulin sandwiches zuwa gidan abinci mai kyau. Anan ne matalauta, butulci da kyawawan kyawawan ƴan matan ƙauye suke zama, da kuma karuwai masu wayewa. Dukansu sun kware sosai wajen cire tufafi masu banƙyama, masu kitse da jarfa, waɗanda aka rataye da sarƙoƙin zinare. A nan Pattaya duk abin da Allah ya haramta yana yiwuwa. Malam Fasto (idan yana nan) cikin alheri ya rufe ido, domin shi da kansa yake buga wasan. Maza masu tuntuɓe waɗanda ba da daɗewa ba suka ga ƙarshen rayuwarsu yana gabatowa za su iya ba da zuciyar su a hankali a hankali a nan tare da ƙaƙƙarfan ƙayataccen kyakkyawan Thai na ashirin.

Sau da yawa ina ganin su suna tafiya a nan, da hannu ɗaya a cikin wani (musa hannu). Kallonta yayi kan cak din da take aika wa talakawa duk wata. Kuma lullubin fuskarsa ya mai da hankali kan wutar da ta kusa kashewa, wadda har yanzu za a iya tada ta na ɗan lokaci. Wannan ita ce Pattaya gaba dayanta kuma a nitse nake mafarkin samun dumin ƙasusuwana masu sanyi a nan cikin tsufana. Kamar Sarki Dauda.

Amma a yanzu bai yi nisa ba kuma ina tafiya kamar saurayin allah a farkon rayuwarsa da harshen wuta wanda zai iya bi da Isra'ilawa cikin jeji. A wannan yanayin, ɗaya daga cikin sanduna da yawa a Pattaya.

Wani lokaci manya-manyan dakunan dakunan mashaya kusan ashirin, inda mazaje marasa tausayi kamar ni, ke neman mafaka ta ƙarshe don samun kulawa. Melancholy yana jingine gaba a kan ma'ajin ƙwanƙwasa tare da kwalaben giya a cikin akwati mai sanyin sanyi a matsayin kamfani kaɗai. Amma ba dadewa ba!

Ga Alras, kamar macijin liman, yana lulluɓe ɗan Thai a jikinka kuma yana yin motsin sha'awa, wanda ake kira da kyau sosai a tsohuwar fikihu: "kamar ta yi aure". Sai ƴan siraran masana'anta (Na kiyasta uku) sun raba ni da aikin. Na haƙura da shi na ɗan lokaci kaɗan sannan na bayyana a fili cewa ba neman kuɗi nake nema ba. Da sauri ta taho ta bace tana neman wani shegiyar ita kadai.

Wani lokaci ina tunanin cewa nakan yi wa kaina wahala. Ba ni da wata ƙiyayya ta ɗabi'a game da jima'i don kuɗi, amma sanin cewa da yawa, watakila ɗaruruwa, sun rigaya ya sa ni hankali da rashin ƙarfi a lokaci guda. Bugu da kari, kukan da ta ke yi na bacin rai zai iya ba ni dariya, wanda kuma hakan ba zai yi tasiri ba. Kuma don "tattaunawa mai kyau" Ina da abokaina. Sai kawai wani kwalban giya kuma tabbas ya isa, na ga wani sabon abu yana gabatowa ma'ana." Menene sunanka? "Daga ina ka zo?"

Yin kwaro shima abin ban sha'awa ne a nan. Tsaye a jere tare da abokan aikina suna ta kururuwa a gaban wani babban fitsarin da ke fesa, ba zato ba tsammani na hango wani mayafi a wuya na tare da yin tausa a bayana. Ni mutum ne mai sassaucin ra'ayi kuma ba na jin tsoro cikin sauƙi a cikin Thailand mai ban sha'awa, amma hannayen hannu guda biyu na sha'awa a kan baya na da hips a cikin bayan gida na jama'a ya ɗan yi yawa don neman haƙuri na. Kuma ina yi masa bulala.

Ba shakka, rashin alheri ne, saboda a fili yake shi ne mafi al'ada a duniya, saboda fusatar maza kusa da ni sun jure da shi. Ana cikin haka sai suka fitar da ɗigon ruwa na ƙarshe suka ba yaron shawara bayan an yi aiki mai kyau. Yanzu na fuskanci wannan akai-akai, har ila yau a cikin tanti masu kyau da gidajen abinci. Ba za su ƙara samun bugu daga gare ni ba, ƙiyayya mai sauƙi zai isa.

Ina so in sami damar yin bawo cikin kwanciyar hankali. Ana tsammanin ɗaya daga cikin ƴan lokutan don kanka. Tailandia kasa ce mai kyau, wani lokacin yana ɗaukar wasu sabawa.

Ita kanta kunya

Kirsimeti a Bangkok ba ya fitowa da kyau. Ƙwaƙwalwa, tunani da yawa haske bishiyar Kirsimeti na karya (ba za ku sami na gaske a cikin wurare masu zafi ba) da sake maimaita waƙoƙin Kirsimeti waɗanda ke ba da labarai game da farin Kirsimeti. Domin ranar haihuwar Buddha ta wuce shiru a yamma, babu ranar hutu a Kirsimeti. Don haka na yanke shawarar yin bikin Kirsimeti a cikin rayuwar Katolika mai wadata na Philippines. A cikin wannan ƙasa an yi musayar rawanin rawani, rigar ermine don chasuble da sandan sarauta don crosier bishop.

Mai martaba Bishop ya zagaya garin Manila a cikin wata Mercedes mai sheki kuma yana zaune a cikin sahihin fada. Shugaban jamhuriyar ya bukaci masu sauraro masu tawali'u kuma bishop ya karɓi da girma kuma yana zaune da ƙarfi a babban wurin zama. Shugaban jihar cikin tawali’u ya nemi izinin limaman bishop kan abubuwa da yawa da ba su da kyau, waɗanda ba su daɗa muni. Ana samun halaccin ta hanyar jefa wa mutane daga hannun tsarkakakku wasu tarkacen ganima. Jiha da Ikilisiya sun haɗu a nan zuwa cikin tsaftataccen ɓangarorin Romawa na rinjayen ubanni da mutane masu gaskiya. Anan za ku iya ganin aljannar da Fafaroma na Renaissance ya hango. Ƙarni na dabarun wayo na Romawa sun sami kamala a wannan ƙasa.

Kowane yaro yana mafarkin zama matukin jirgi ko mai kashe gobara, a gare ni hular Cardinal ta fi dacewa da basirata. Kuma ba a cikin kyamar Paparoma Holland ba, amma a tsakiyar Philippine suna nuna haske ga masu bi masu sauƙi, suna tsoron jahannama da tsinewa idan ban isa ba a wurina da kirana. A nan zan iya bunƙasa cikin ɗabi'a da ƙware a biki, kuma a lokaci guda na haɗa buƙatun Ikilisiya da na kaina.

Anan, a lokacin taron fastoci, duk idanu masu tawali'u suna karkata ga maɗaukakin fuskata. Anan na ba da izinin fitar da ni yadda ya kamata a cikin wani koren kore mai launin zinari ta hanyar mawaƙa ɗari, tana rerawa a kowane sasanninta na babban coci. Anan, kewaye da ’ya’yan bagadi goma sha biyu marasa laifi, ina bin gicciye a matsayin alamar babbar sadaukarwata.

Anan na bi hanyara zuwa teburin da aka shimfida da yawa kuma zan wanke kayan da aka tace da talakawa suka bayar don godiya da giyar da aka sha. Anan na kwantar da kaina a gajiye a cikin wani katifa da aka sassaƙa ƙaƙƙarfan zanen alharini da aka sassaƙa da baroque a ƙarƙashin zanen siliki, wanda wata ƴar baiwar Allah ta lulluɓe. Anan na bar shi ya tafi kamar yadda na saba.

A takaice, wa zai iya tunanin dalili mafi ƙasƙanci na bikin Kirsimeti a Manila, diocese na?

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