Iyo Bow haigone kugara yakasununguka: Rwendo rwemukati (Chikamu 16)

John Wittenberg anopa akati wandei fungidziro parwendo rwake kuburikidza neThailand, izvo zvakamboburitswa mupfupi nyaya muunganidzwa 'The Bow haigone kugara yakasununguka' (2007). Zvakatanga kuna John sekutiza kubva kumarwadzo nekusuwa zvakura kuita kutsvaga zvinoreva. Buddhism yakazova nzira inofambika. Kubva zvino zvichienda mberi, nyaya dzake dzichaonekwa nguva dzose paThailandblog.

Mapunzi akayangarara akandikomberedza

Ndiri pano, ndakagara mujasi pamberi pemba yangu, ndakakomberedzwa nemiti yakaisvonaka ine muti webhanana unobwinya senzvimbo isingadzivisiki pakati. Pfungwa dzakapinda mukati. Ndiri kunzwa sei zvino? Ndiko kusurukirwa!

Ndinonyatsonzwa ndiri ndega uye ndinoda kuva nevanhu pandiri. Ichokwadi kuti kunyarara kwakaiswa mandiri nokuzvidira, asi ikoko kunofanira kuripwa nechipo chepamusoro. Ndinofunga nezvezvisarudzo zvandinoita muupenyu hwangu. The retrospective, asiwo ramangwana. Hazvinyanyoita kuti ndisachengeteke, asi kuti ndisagutsikana.

Ndinofunga zvakanyanya nezvaMaria panguva idzi. Zuva rake rekuzvarwa rinoswedera uye nguva dzinosuwisa dzinodzoka dzisingagamuchirwi. Kutarisa pamuti iwoyo wemabhanana kunoita kuti munhu anzwe kusuruvara. Dai ndangotora banga ndikacheka rudo rwaMaria nenyemwerero yake. Kwaenda zvachose. Mukufamba kumwe chete, badza rinopinza.

Kudzidza kweDhamma kwakanyanya kundidzidzisa kuti zvinhu zvose hazviperi, zvachose zvose, hapana chisingaperi. Zivo iyi, kunyange zvazvo ichigutsa, haindibatsiri iye zvino. Asi nei? Zvakanyanya kunaka here kuti zvive chokwadi? Kutsvaga kwedu muhupenyu inhanho inoenderera. Hazviperi chete. Kutsvaga kwangu ndekweSocratic, ndinobvunza kusingaperi uye handimbogutsikane nemhinduro. Kufanana nenyanzvi isingambooni basa rake richinyatsoratidzwa, mumusoro make chaimo.

Asi chiBuddha hachidi kuva uzivi. Haina kuchera zvakadzika uye zvinoita kuti inakidze. Saka kutsva mushure memazana ese aya. Pane kusuruvara kuduku kunoshamisa muThailand. Kana kuti ndizvo, asi kusuwa kwakadzvinyirirwa here? Pandinotarisa zvakandipoteredza, vaThai zvechokwadi vanhu vakatendeseka uye vanofara. Vanotsvaka mafaro chaivo uye vanoda kufadza vamwe. Kashoma Calvinistic melancholy.

Buddhism pasina mubvunzo ine pesvedzero inobatsira pakufara kwemweya. Kusaita zvechisimba kunoparidzwa kunoita kuti munhu ave nesimba mukufamba kwenguva. Kuendesa kutambura kunenge kwatambura kumunhu akakuitira kunenge kusingafungire, asi pano kunowana mushonga wekuporesa mweya wakakuvadzwa. Hunhu uhu huzhinji hunoita kuti vanhu ava vafare.

Ndizvo here zvechiDutch kwandiri kuti ndifungidzire pamberi peimba yangu? Semumongi, zvino ndofanira kuwana nzwisiso iyi yakadzama ichimanikidzwa here? Iripo here? Kana kuti ndinoda nguva yakawanda kupfuura mavhiki matatu chete? Kana kuti isu tinongozviwana munzira yehupenyu hwezuva nezuva? Usamanikidzire, ndingadaro.

Asi ini ndinonzwa kunetsana semumongi: kumanikidzwa kuuya kumba nenyaya yakanaka. “Wajekerwa sei zvino, John?”, ndinonzwa mubvunzo wokunyomba uchiuya. Ini ndatove nemhinduro yakagadzirira (sezvandinogara ndine mhinduro yakagadzirira:) "Zvirokwazvo, makirogiramu mana", nokuti ini handinwi doro pano uye ndakadzidza kufuratira nzara yemanheru.

Ini zvino ndinoona zuva richinyangarika zvishoma nezvishoma kuseri kwemiti uye ndinoshuva hupenyu hwangu kunze kwetemberi zvakare. Nyika huru yakaipa inyika yandinoda kufara mairi. Zvimwe chidzidzo chinobva mureverie iyi ndechekuti handifanire kunyura pasi, kuita kakurovera nyoka nguva nenguva uye kungokukurwa chinyararire neflotsam yakandipoteredza.

Mumwe murume ice cream

Ndiine tumapundu pasi petsoka dzangu, ndinonyatso kufamba ndichienda kumba ndoona usiku hwerima huchichinja kuva zuva rakajeka. Iyi ndiyo Binthabad yangu yekupedzisira. Ndakatora bhachi rakasviba nemari yesimbi kubva kune mumwe murume akanga akapfeka zvinonyadzisa. Ndeyehama yakafa uye ndinoitakura kuenda nayo kutemberi mumaoko omumongi. Icho chiito chekufananidzira chekutsigira mufi parwendo rwake.

Kazhinji ndinogovera mari yose inogamuchirwa pakati peshamwari nhatu dzemamongi (idzo dzinogara dzichishamiswa kuti ndinogamuchira zvakawanda kwazvo, ivo havatombowani chinhu ivo pachavo) asi ndinochengeta idzi mari dzakagamuchirwa ndozvichengeta mundiro yangu yokupemha. Ichi ndicho chipo chikuru chandakagamuchira. Ndichakanganwa zvakawanda muupenyu hwangu, asi panhovo yangu yerufu ndicharamba ndichifunga nezvazvo. Murume uyu haaoni kukosha kwechipo chake uye ndinomutenda nekusingaperi. Kwandiri ndicho chinonyanya kukosha pakugadzwa kwangu semumongi. Mari idzi hadzina mutengo. Vanondiratidza kuti kunyangwe uri murombo sei, kupa kwakanakisa kupfuura kugamuchira!

Chisvusvuro chekupedzisira chinodyiwa ndokubva ndafamba-famba ndoshanyira mumwe mumongi airatidza pachena akanga asina kufara zvikuru seakaunziri mumakore ake eudiki. Haasati ava nemakore 35, asi mafungiro ake ndeemudhara. Ganda rake rakachenuruka senamo uye minwe yake yakareba uye yakaonda. Magirazi makuru ejamu ejamu anovhara maziso ake ane bako. Haachakwanisa kuenda kuBinthabad nekuti traffic nevanhu vakamutenderedza vanomupa dzungu uye zvinomutambudza pfungwa. Anoita zvinhu zvishomanana muupenyu uye saka anoda zvishoma. Anofarira kuva oga muimba yake isina ruvara, achiteerera mharidzo dzaBuddhadasa Bhikkku, dzakarekodhwa pamakaseti anenge makumi maviri.

Anofara kundigamuchira kuti ndidzidzise Chirungu. Uyu mumongi asina kusimba zvakanyanya anondinakidza zvikuru. Nenguva dzenomwe anoteerera Voice of America uye na8 o'clock BBC World Service. Anozotarisa mazwi aasinganzwisisi uye ndiwo madzidzisiro aakaita Chirungu. Saka ndakazvinyima uye kutaurirwa, asi ndakaziviswa nezvezviitiko zvenyika uye kufarira hupenyu hwangu.

Anotaura zvakanyatsonaka uye zvine mufungo zvakanyanya uye anofara zvinooneka nekushanya kwangu. Ndaida kumbopedza nguva yakati rebei naye. Ndinomupa kero yepamba pangu uye tumwe tumwe tunonaka. Ndinoziva kuti humongi ndiyo mhinduro kwaari. Pano anogona kugutsikana kurega hupenyu hwake huchifamba munzira yaanoda, iyo inomuita murume anofara.

Kana mumongi afunga kudzokera kuhupenyu hwakajairika, anoenda nemhemberero yakakosha. Chiito chake chekutanga ndechekupfidza mhosva dzakaitwa pamberi pemumwe mumongi. (Ndakamira ndakaisa maoko muchiuno, ndokuseka zvangu, ndarumwa mupunga ndokugara ndakaparadzana makumbo, asi ndichazvisiya zvakadaro.)

Tsika pfupi yepamutemo inoenda neinotevera: Ndinofamba nepagedhi retembere kekupedzisira semumongi akazara, ndinopfugama katatu pamberi peabbot uye ndichiimba: "Sikkham paccakkhami,gihiti mam dharetha" (Ndinosiya basa, ndinoda. kuti ndizvizive semunhuwo zvake ) uye ndinodzokorora izvi katatu kuti ndive nechokwadi chekuti ndinoida chaizvo. Ndobva ndadzokera ndobvisa hembe dzangu dzemonaki ndopfeka chena.

Ndinonamata zvakare kuna abbot katatu uye ndinodzokorora: "Esaham bhante ,sucira-parinibutampi, tam bhagavantam saranam gacchami ,Dhammanca, bhikkhu-sanghanca, upasakam mam sangho dharetu, ajjatagge pamipetam saranam gatam in the exversion" mumwe, kunyange zvazvo akapinzwa kare muNirvana, pamwe chete naDhamma namamongi Dai vandibvuma somunhu akazvipira uyo akatizira kubva nhasi zvichienda mberi, chero bedzi upenyu hwangu huripo).

Ipapo ndinogamuchira mhinduro kubva kuna abbot: "Ini mani panca sikkhapadani nicca-silavasena sadhukam rakkhit abbani" (Iyi mitemo mishanu yekuita ini ndichachengeta semirairo inogara iripo). Ipapo ndinoteerera zvikuru ndichiti: “ama bhante” (Hungu, rukudzo rwako) kuzvirevo zvinotevera: “Silena sugatim yanti” (Nekunaka), “Silena bhagasampada” (Nokunaka kuwana budiriro), “Silena nibbutim yanti” (Nokunaka kuwana Nirvana), ”Tasma silam” (Nokudaro kunaka kuchava kwakachena). Ndinotora mvura yakasaswa mushure mezvo ndinosiya basa kuti ndichinje hembe yangu chena nehembe dzangu dzemazuva ese, ndinokotama katatu kuna abbot uye ini ndiri murume we ice cream zvakare.

Champagne uye zvishongo

Mushure mekubuda kwangu, tinofamba naPra Arjan kumba kwake uye ini ndinogara pasi zvakare ndotarisa kumusoro padesktop yake zvakare. Kare taive pasame level.

Ndinogamuchira murairo wangu wekupedzisira Dhamma; nyika inogona kupatsanurwa zviri nyore kuita zvikamu zviviri: mamongi uye vanhuwo zvavo. Mamongi anogona kuzvipira kuzvinhu zvekudenga zvinotsigirwa nevatendi vanofanira kugadzira dikita nekuda kweizvi. Ini zvino ndichazvipira kune manejimendi zvakare, anodaro Phra Arjan, asi mumongi anofanira kuramba kure nenyaya dzepasirese.

"Asi Phra Arjan, wave kutonga nzvimbo yako yekufungisisa, handiti?" Uye ipapo ndinongowana kunyemwerera mukudzoka. Ndakazviona kakawanda, maonero angu epasi-pasi pamusoro pemamiriro ezvinhu haanyanyi kusemeswa asi kungofuratirwa. Zviri zvachose kunze ruzivo nyika. Zivo inongotorwa, kwete kutsoropodzwa. Manzwiro haana kutsanangurwa, asi anogamuchirwa sezvaari pasina kumwe kutaurirana. Pano hatisi kuongorora asi kubata nemusoro.

Kutsoropodza hakuna kupatsanurwa, kwete zvakanyanya nekuda kwekusaziva, asi kunze kwe-kunyepedzera kana neimwe nzira- kuremekedza mamwe maonero. Zvirinani ndiyo nzira iyo Thais inobvumidza maitiro avo. Ndinosangana nazvo zvakasiyana. Kushivirira kune avo vanofunga zvakasiyana pasina mubvunzo kwakakwirira uye chinhu chinokosha zvikuru cheBuddhism; Kunyanya kunyanyisa kweIslam hakuwane nzvimbo yekuberekera pano.

Asi kushivirira hakusi kusununguka. Pfungwa yeChiedza yakafuratira zvachose izvi. Pane zvishoma kutaurwa nezvemazuva ano. Hurukuro naPhra Arjan inogara iri monologue. Ehe mibvunzo inogona kubvunzwa, asi mhinduro dzinongove dzokororo yezvakapfuura.

Kutaura zvazviri, dzidziso yacho ndeyechokwadi uye haichinjiki. Ndinonzwisisa kuti haugone kushandura Buddha kuita wechidiki anonwa whiskey anoenda kudisco manheru eMugovera wega wega. Asi kuenzanisa kuteerera kumimhanzi yepop nekuuraya, kuba uye mhirizhonga hazvisi zvenyika zvachose.

Pandinobvunza izvo zvisina kunaka nezvemwanakomana anoshingaira kudzidza, zvinotapira kuvabereki vake, asi uyo achiri kuteerera mimhanzi yepop, anodzokorora - nekunyemwerera - kuipa kwakaita nyika kunze kwetembere. Saka hazvishamisi kuti vechidiki vari kuenda kutemberi zvishoma nezvishoma.

Iye zvino ndinofanira kungwarira kuti ndisaite generalize zvakanyanya uye ndive smartass. Ndangove mumongi kwemavhiki mashoma uye handisi kuita senge ndichibvisa magirazi angu ekuMadokero. Vashumiri vaMwari vakawanda muHolland vachashamiswa nekufarira kuchiri kuitwa nevechidiki mukutenda kuno.

Kugadzwa kwangu chiitiko chinofinha kana chichienzaniswa nechomuThai. Hafu yemusha inoenda kunoyangarara uko mumongi anosvika anorumbidzwa samambo wezuva. Kokero dzinotumirwa kumhuri neshamwari dzichivakumbira kukanganwira zvivi zvose zvomumongi mutsva uye kuchengeta mutambo wacho pamwe chete nemhuri. Kubva kure nekure - kufananidzwa nemuchato - vanodirana nezvipo zvavo zvakanaka zvemumongi wechidiki uye zvetembere.

Iri kurudziro yemagariro - kunyangwe kwenguva pfupi - kuti murume anga ari monk. Kunyange mambo akachinja muzinda wake nesero remamongi kwenguva pfupi. Hurumende nevamwe vashandirwi vakawanda vanotopa mwedzi mitatu yezororo rinobhadharwa.

Nemhaka yokuti nzanga yose yakanyura zvikuru muchiBuddha (vanopfuura makumi mapfumbamwe muzana vanoti vaBuddha) uye vagari vemo vakawanda vanoremekedzwa vave vari mamongi vamene, sangano racho rinogona kuumburuka mumubhedha unofadza uye usingatsoropodzi wokunamata. Asi panguva imwecheteyo pane njodzi yekupotsa kukurumidza kusimudzira uko Thailand yanga ichisangana nayo mumakore achangopfuura.

Parizvino, zvinhu zvese zviri kufamba zvakanaka pano. Kune kunyange chiteshi cheterevhizheni umo mumongi akachenjera anopa maawa ekutaura mumwe chete. Phra Arjan haana kutaura neni kwenguva yakareba, ikozvino yave nguva yekuonekana. Zvine hunyengeri uye zvakanyanya cosmopolitanly, poto yekupa inonongedzwa. Ikozvino inguva yangu yekunyemwerera chinyararire ndichitsiva. Asi ini handisi ini ndakashata uye ndipe nekuzvipira kwakakodzera. Ndakabva ndaonekana naVichaai, Surii naBrawat ndine envelope yakazara. Vanogona kushandisa izvozvo chaizvo pazvidzidzo zvavo. Vakandibatsira zvinofadza, dzimwe nguva kunyange nenzira yakashata zvikuru.

Vichaai akazova monaki neni akambova novice for twelve years and haasati ambobata mukadzi ndoda kumutsvoda. Anoda kutanga mhuri gare gare uye anoda chaizvo kuziva kuti oita sei kumukadzi. Anondiona saJames Bond chaiye.

Pamwe ndini ndine mhosva yeizvi nekuzivisa champagne sechinwiwa chandinofarira uye nekumudzidzisa mutsara wakanakisa wekuvhura gare gare apo anoda kusvika kumukadzi: "Unoda zvishongo?" Zviripachena kuti ndagadzirira zvakare nyika huru yevanhu vane hasha. Uye ndinobhururuka kudzokera kuNetherlands nemoyo unodziya.

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