Botan, munyori akaba moyo wangu

'Mamwe manheru ndakagara zvangu mubedroom mangu ndakabata kapepa pamakumbo ndichifunga zvandaizonyora. Ndakanzwa mai nababa vachipopotedzana mubedroom pedyo neni. Ndakanyora zvavaitaura; uye nokudaro 'Tsamba dzakabva kuThailand' dzakazvarwa.'
Botan nezvekwakabva bhuku rake

'Amai vangu vanodiwa uye vanokudzwa', nokudaro inotanga yekutanga yetsamba makumi mapfumbamwe nenhanhatu idzo Tan Suang U akanyora ari kuThailand kuna amai vake muChina pakati pa1945 na1967. Tan Suang U murombo wekuChina anotama uyo, sevamwe vazhinji, anotsvaga budiriro uye mufaro muThailand.

'Tsamba dzinobva kuThailand' ndiro bhuku rine mavara aya; yakanyorwa naBotan (zita remunyori Soepha Sirisingh, 1945-aripo), iye pachake mwanasikana weChinese akatama uye amai vechiChinese / Thai.

Akanyora bhuku iri aine makore makumi maviri nerimwe uye muna 21 akagamuchira mubairo weSEATO weThai Literature. Bhuku rinodiwa kuverenga muzvikoro zveThai. Ndakadzidza zvakawanda nezveThailand kubva mubhuku iri kupfuura kubva mumabhuku gumi eruzivo. Iri rimwe remabhuku angu andinofarira uye ndinokurudzira chero munhu anofarira Thailand kuti ariverenge.

Mutambi mukuru uye munyori wetsamba ndiTan Suang U (Tan izita rake remhuri, rake ona, haamboshandisi zita rake rechiThai). Anoroora musikana akanaka wechiChinese achiri mudiki, ane mwanakomana uye 'nenhamo' vamwe vanasikana vatatu uye anova muzvinabhizimisi akapfuma muYaowarat.

Ndicharatidza zvakaitika zvake zvakavakirwa padzimwe ndima dziri mubhuku racho uye ndinovimba kuti, pashure petsananguro pfupi, vachazvitaura vamene.

tsamba 20, 1945, baba vake vokurera vanoti kuna Suang U muimba yake yekurara:
'Ndagara munyika ino kwemakumi emakore akawanda, Suang U, uye ndakadzidza zvakawanda nezvevanhu vangu ndichivaona vachitambura, uye kazhinji vachibudirira, pakati pevanhu vedzinza rakasiyana. Chii chinoita kuti tisiyane zvikuru, uye tingaramba sei takadaro? Ndanga ndichifunga nezvazvo zvakanyanya mumavhiki apfuura.

Kana iwe ukateerera Thais achitaura nezveChinese, ungafunga kuti isu tese tinobva mumusha mumwechete, tina baba naamai vamwechete, uye kuti tese tinofunga nekuita zvakafanana. Zviuru zvetsanga dzomupunga zvakakandwa mutswanda, asi ndinonzwisisa kuti nei vachifunga kudaro. Isu tiri vatorwa pano………….. "

Akatsinzina meso ake zvakare, akashama muromo ndokuti, "Buruka pasi undotaura navamwene vako ... ndienderere mberi nekufa."

tsamba 29, 1947, vakadzi vechiChinese vanofanira kupfeka bhurugwa; hurukuro pakati pavamwene vaSuang U nemukuwasha wake, Ang Bui
'Maona manje? Anoita zvaanoda chaizvo. Lipstick, achinyora patsiye dzake - anotopfeka siketi yefarang paanoenda kunotenga neshamwari dzake. Dai baba vake vaimuona. ”… Akasimudza maziso ake padenga. 'Dai chete aida kuroorwa ... baba vake murombo vakamuteterera ari panhovo yerufu ...'

Ang Bui akasvetukira pachigaro chake, maziso ake achipenya nehasha. 'Iwe unofunga kuti mufaro kumukadzi unogona chete kusanganisira chinhu chimwe: kuroora, murume. Zvakanaka izvo hazvisizvo, kwete kwandiri zvakadaro. handichada. Makambofunga here kuti mukadzi anogona kuroorwa asi asina mufaro? Tarisa kumativi ako!'

tsamba 33, 1949, mufananidzo waSuang U
….Pane chirevo cheThai chinoti 'kutaura chiChinese kunonzwika senharo Thais'. Ndakatsunga kusambofa ndakasimbisa rusaruro irworwo... Pfungwa yekuti maChinese ese ane ruzha uye ane hutsinye haana chokwadi sepfungwa yekuti Thais anogara achinyemwerera. Kana iwe uchigara pakati peThais iwe unoziva kuti handizvo. Kune zvakare akasuruvara, achipopota Thais, anopfuura zvakakwana ... Iyo yakakurumbira yeThai kunyemwerera ingori icing pakike; Vakaravira chete ndivo vanoziva zvakaita cake pacharo.

Vanoyemura zvikuru muThailand vanhu, kunyanya vatorwa, vasingazive kuti hupenyu hwakaita sei pano. Vanogutsurira musoro uye vanoti maThais 'vatambi chaivo vehupenyu' uye 'vanoziva kukosha kwehupenyu hwakanyarara'. Havagoni kufungidzira kunyanyisa kwehusimbe nekusavimbika uko mutsara wepfungwa uyu unotungamira, kana mwero waunozvidza kurongeka nemaitiro akabudirira.

tsamba 36, ​​1952, Suang U, mudzimai wake Mui Eng nemwanakomana wavo Weng Kim
'Khráp, khun Phô!
'Ko izvo 'khráp zvinorevei? (Ndaiziva).
"Ndine urombo!" Akaseka achitya.
"Unozviziva here, Weng Kim, kuti uri muChina?"
'Hongu Baba; asi nei gwaro rangu rekuzvarwa richiti ndiri Thai? Ndazviona.'
'Nekuti wakaberekerwa muThailand. Ndicho chikonzero iwe uri mugari weThai, sezvakaita Amai; asi iwe unoramba uri muChina, sezvakangoita amai vari muChina. Unonzwisisa here?'
Akagutsurira musoro asipo uye handina kuzonzwa achitaura Thai.
Mavhiki mashoma gare gare, Mui Eng akati "Unoziva here kuti Weng Kim anotaura Thai kufekitori?"

tsamba 49, 1954, kukakavadzana pakati pemwanakomana waSuang U, Weng Kim, nemushandi mufekitari yavo.
"Iwe mwana wakapenga!" akadaro nehasha.'Ikozvino iwe wasvibisa candy. Unoziva kuti izvozvo zvinodhura zvakadini?'
"Waita sei kutaura neni kudaro!" she said back zvine simba.
'Zvakanaka, ndinogona kukuudza chero zvandinoda. Iwe unongova mushandiwo zvake pano uye baba vangu ndivo sabhuku wevanhu vese vari pano. Ndichaona kuti akudzinga basa!'
“Saka ndiye sabhuku here? Zvino nei aifanira kusiya nyika yake, iwe benzi?* Iyi inyika yangu kwete yako. Unouya kuno, worenda chikamu chevhu uye unofunga kuti uri chimwe chinhu...jek!'
'Haukwanise kumuti ini! Weng Kim akaridza tsamwa. 'Uye kana iwe usingafarire kushandira jerk, saka ingonyangarika! Huya, IVAI!!'
'Dzokera kuChina!' akadaro musikana nenzwi rine hasha neshungu, 'ipapo modya ndove yemombe sezvamaiita kare!'

*jek, zita rekutuka remuChina. Musikana anogona kugara, Suang Unofungisisa gare gare:
Ndinoedza kukanganwa chiitiko chacho. Asi handikwanise kubvisa mashoko akashata emusikana mumusoro mangu. Meso ake matema mahombe atochembera uye aneta; Ndinomunzwira tsitsi! Ane godo nehupenyu huri nyore vana vangu, zvipfeko zvakanaka zvinopfekwa nevasikana vedu, chikafu chakanaka chavanowana ... Dai chete varombo vakawanda vechiThai vaive vakapenga uyu! Asi vazhinji vanorarama zuva nezuva, vasina vavariro kana kufarira, kunze kwechikafu chakakwana nenzvimbo yekurara.

tsamba 55, 1956, kurukurirano pakati paSuang U, uyo akarumbidza chiremba wokuThailand, nomuramu wake Ang Bui
"Urikukurudzira Thai?" Chiso chake chinonyevenuka chichidzokera mukunyemwerera kwaaiziva, kwakashata. “Aka ndekekutanga muhupenyu hwangu kunzwa uchitaura chimwe chinhu chakanaka nezvemuThai.” ………..Ang Bui akanyemwerera zvakare. 'Zvakanaka, nhasi warumbidza muThai uye wakashora muChinese nezuva rimwe chete. Thailand dzimwe nguva inoita kuti upfave!'

tsamba 65, 1960, Suang U aida kuti vana vake vose vashande mushure megiredhi rechitatu rechikoro chepuraimari. Meng Ju ndiye mwanasikana wake gotwe.
Meng Ju aramba kusiya chikoro. Hapana kana hanzvadzi yake huru yakamboita bopoto nazvo, asi musikana uyu dhiyabhorosi akasiyana... Awa imwe gare gare ndakatarisa panze nepahwindo ndikamuona achifamba mumugwagwa akabata bhegi rake muruwoko uye murwi wemabhuku muzasi merumwe rutivi. . ………

Muramu wake Ang Bui anouya kuzokurukura nyaya iyi.
'...Chinhu chakaipa ndechekuti kana ukasamupa mukana, anozovava paanenge achikura...Izvo...haugone kurega izvozvo zvichiitika, Suang U!
"Ko wauya kuno uchiti haungazvisiye izvi zvichiitika!" Ndakadanidzira.
"Regai ndipedzise!" akaenderera mberi Ang Bui….
Meng Ju anotenderwa kugara kuchikoro.

tsamba 76, 1963, mwanakomana waSuang U Weng Kim akatiza nepfambi inonzi Pahni.
Vabereki vanoda vana vavo uye vane hanya navo; ndihwo utera hwedu hukuru uye chombo chavo chikurusa. Muchidimbu, ndakatora musikana Pahni mumba medu kuti arege kurasikirwa nemwanakomana wangu ... Ndinofunga kuti nzanga yeThai haina kunaka kune vakadzi vakaita saPahni nokuti pavanoedza kusiya hupenyu hwavo, zvinova zvisingabviri. Vanomanikidzwa kudzokera mumigwagwa kana kufa nenzara nevanhu vanonyanya kupikisa chipfambi.

tsamba 80, 1965, mwanakomana wake Weng Kim anotaura nababa vake, Suang U
"Chii chandinofanira kuita kuti ndive mwanakomana akanaka, Baba?" anowedzera nezwi diki. 'Ndakavhiringika ... Ndichiri mudiki, chikoro chaiita seimwe nyika; chikoro cheThai ndinoreva, seimwe nyika kana chimwe chinhu. Pano tinotaura chiChinese uye waitarisira kuti tiite sevana vekwawakakurira….Po Leng?….

Baba, munofunga kuti ndinotaura chiThai sechiThai, handizvo here? Zvakanaka, ndine matauriro. Vanondiseka, sevana vekuchikoro, vana chete vanozviita kumeso kwako uye kwete kumashure kwako ... ?

Kwete, usataure chero chinhu, kwete…. Ndinoita zvakanyanya semuThai kuti ndifadze vabereki vangu, asi kune muThai ndichiri ... jek ... ndiri jeki ane dzidzo yeThai. Baba murikunzwisisa zvandiri kuedza kutsanangura here?'

Ko ndaigopindura sei ini pahuro painge parwadza nekuchemerera? Ndainge ndisati ndambonzwa mwana wangu achitaura mashoko akawanda kudaro akatevedzana, handina kumbofungira kuti aikwanisa kurwadzisa mweya kudaro. Yaingova mhosva yangu here kana kuti yenzanga…?

tsamba 86,1966, XNUMX, Meng Ju, mwanasikana wake gotwe, anotaura nababa vake Suang U nezvehukama hwake nechikomba chake chekuThai, Winyu.
"Saka waronga kuenderera mberi neizvi…..Unofunga kuti unomuziva zvakakwana here?"
'Handina chokwadi nazvo. Iniwo handizvizivi zvakanyanya; uye handitombokuzivai, kunyangwe ndakagara nemi hupenyu hwangu hwese'...

Gare gare, nezve kuva Thai uye Chinese
Baba Kudada nerudzi rwemunhu kunongova pembedzo yegodo neruvengo, uye nyika ino inotambura nechirwere chimwe chetecho; zviratidzo chete hazvina kujeka.

MuBangkok, vanhu vanobva kumaruwa vanotarisirwa pasi uye vanhu vanobva kuchamhembe kwakadziva kumabvazuva vanoshorwa nomunhu wose; vanoti havasi 'vaThai chaivo' asi maLaotians. Isu maChinese hatisi isu chete vashoma, mufunge. Iwe une vaMuslim, vaVietnam, vanhu vanobva kuIndia, madzinza emakomo ... kana tikasatanga kuwirirana zviri nani kune mumwe nemumwe, isu tose tiri mumatambudziko.'

tsamba 95, 1967, Suang U pamusoro pemukuwasha wake wekuThai, Winyu
Zvinotemesa musoro kuona Winyu ari kumba kwake, asina chaanoita kunze kwekushanda! Uye anogara akakomberedzwa nemakomo emapepa nemabhuku, ake uye evadzidzi vake.
"Handimboregi kushamiswa nebasa rako rose iroro," ndakadaro kwaari mamwe manheru. 'Handisati ndambova neThai ...'
"Ikozvino ndawana zvakakwana!" akadeedzera achirova ruoko rwake zvine simba pakanzi 'An Overview of Primary Education in the Province'. ' Hauna kumbopedza zuva papurazi reThai; unofanira kuita izvozvo pane imwe nguva. Pane kuenzanisa munhu wese weThai nevashandi vemubheka rako.'
Akanga akarurama uye kwenguva yokutanga ndakakumbira ruregerero nomwoyo wose nokuda kwemashoko angu asina kufunga.

tsamba 96, 1967, kuratidzwa kwaSuang U mutsamba yake yekupedzisira
Gore rino rapfuura ndakadzidza zvinhu zviviri zvinoshamisa. Imwe ndeyokuti mari haisi iyo inonyanya kukosha munyika; chimwe ndechekuti zvatinotenda hazvingoratidzi zvatiri...

…..Mwanakomana wangu! Ndakabata Weng Kim mumaoko angu semwana mudiki ndokuzevezera munzeve dzake kuti mari ndimwari anokudzwa, kuti kutengeserana kwakaunza mufaro uye purofiti yakaunza mufaro... Kune maChina akawanda pano asi vaThai vakakunda. Nenzira, kwakanga kusati kwambova makwikwi chaiwo, asi ndakazvisimbisa ndimene kuti kwakanga kuri nokuda kwangu pachangu.

Kana paine munhu ari nani kupfuura Winyu Thepyalert, handisati ndasangana naye. Ndaigara ndichitenda kuti moyo wakanaka haupinze mari. Iwe haugone kutenga mupunga nekuda kwerudo, ini ndaiti nguva dzose ... Pandinofunga nezvezvandaifunga nezvake pandakasangana naye, pandakaona chete chiso cheThai uye boka rose reunhu hunoshamisa hwandakanga ndapinza maari. .kuzvitutumadza – hapana chimwe chazvo chinoshanda kwaari – hongu, ipapo ndinonyara! Kuvenga munhu iwe usingatombomuzivi chinhu chinonyadzisa, asi kudya sadza remumwe munhu kwete...'

'Ndaida kubudirira, mupfungwa yandaimbobatana nayo. Asi ndakatadza kufadza vamwe vanhu nekuti ndaiva mupfupi uye ndiine njere…'

Botani, Tsamba dzinobva kuThailand, Silkworm Books, 2002
Botani, Tsamba dzinobva kuThailand, NOVIB, The Hague, 1986, ichiri kuwanikwa kuburikidza neinternet, bol.com.

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